Sometimes it is hard to keep my mouth shut ! I know that I am not the one that is making everything difficult ! So what I have Cancer ? So what I have Chemo fog ? My heart is telling me that I am just not that strong yet . Anybody that really knows me , also knows that I hate any confrontations and arguing ! I swallow a lot before I blow up ! And when I finally blow up I am out of Control . A Nurse told me once that a Illness or a Decease can make or brake a Marriage . Yes that is true !
Really not in the mood to get in to this subject !
All I know is this : I am no longer the person I used to be ! I have changed ! Seems to me like I have to really go deep inside of myself , in Order to make radical Changes ! But if he can't handle me when I am sick : then I don't believe we can make it . I know just the thought of it makes me feel uncomfortable . I would never get a Divorce ! After almost 30 Years we can live together and we both just life our life's individually .
