I can't believe I actually wrote about Rhonda ; It is the first time in 6 Years that I actually wrote about it . There is much more to say about her but I want to get back to my Treatment because I can't deal with writing more about the Funeral .
We had rain all day and it is kind of nasty outside . I got up at 8 AM took my telaprevir and Ribiviren , did Laundry , put clothe away , mopped the floor and cleaned the Bathroom. I feel like a Zombie today for some reason . I worked out a little bit with my Wii and felt really good. Then I made me some soup and now I feel like shit again . My Stomach just feels sour and I am nauseated . I am going to watch a Movie now ! " Lincoln Lawyer " . I will let you all know how good it was . My Friend Liana said it was great . Anyway, I think it was a good idea to write this Blog , it gives me a chance to get things of my chest without bothering anyone with all my weird worries and thoughts ... Sometimes I like to be in Isolation ! I have days like that , but tomorrow will be better : ( I am sure ...
Friday, August 5, 2011
There is nothing worse then losing a child
In 2005 my Step daughter Rhonda decided to come for a visit ; she called me and asked if it was ok to bring her Mother . I said " Sure , I always wanted to meet the Mother of My Children " . We laughed and planned her trip . Finally in May they come and see us . We haven't seen her in 3 or 4 Years and wasn't sure why she had no contact with us in that time I finally met Brenda and welcomed her and tried to make her feel comfortable . I wanted her to make peace with our 2 boys , that she left when they were 10 and 14 Years old . We all had a good time and met our Grand daughter Shelby that Rhonda had in 2003 . Our youngest son works for the Sheriff and told us that Brenda could stay with him. He is dating a Philippine Woman named Myrna and she tried to make her feel comfortable . I had my Doubts because our youngest Son is a little revengeful and does not do anything without a thought behind it ! We found out from his Girlfriend that he ignored his Birth Mother the whole time she stayed with him .I understood that he was hateful towards her but it was time to move on and make peace !
Rhonda wanted to bring them together and she knew I supported that thought . We went to New Orleans with everybody , when my Grandson and his Girlfriend arrived a couple days later . Beth was pregnant for Jordon and Austin was about 2 Years old . We had fun and took many pictures . But Brenda was always hiding behind her Sun glasses .
When they left for the Airport on May 17th ; we had no glue that we NEVER would see Rhonda alive again !
Brenda called us on July 4th and told us that Rhonda was in the Hospital and that she didn't know what happened . I told Weldon to get packing and within an Hour we where on our way to Goldsboro North Carolina .
We got there the next morning and we went straight for the Hospital where we met with Brenda and her " New Daughter Tori " the reason why she left my Husband after 14 Years of Marriage . We asked them Questions and they kept saying that Rhonda's Boyfriend Ken called the Ambulance and they didn't know what is going on . As soon as Ken came in I took him out in the Hallway and asked him " What the hell happened " and he told me that they just made love and when she got up she felt dizzy and she just fell over like someone had shot her .
Later on that afternoon we finally got to see her and she was connected to a lot of Machines and I felt the cold room like death has been here . My Husband said " She looks like Charlotte " and he started to cry . Charlotte was my Husbands sister that died in her 20 Ti's of Hodgkin Decease . I touched her feet and they where ice cold . My Grandson kept trying to open her eyes and we all cried a Million Tears . When we finally got to speak with the Doctors ; we found out that she had a aneurysm and she was already brain dead . She was being kept alive because she was a Organ Donor !
I will never forget the pain in every bodies Faces and the tears and the pain ! I was worried about my Husband because he had a triple Bypass 2 Years before that . It was the worst day in our lives ! And we just couldn't believe it ...
Our Rhonda , my Friend, our son's sister, Jason's and Shelby's Mom was no longer alive !
Rhonda wanted to bring them together and she knew I supported that thought . We went to New Orleans with everybody , when my Grandson and his Girlfriend arrived a couple days later . Beth was pregnant for Jordon and Austin was about 2 Years old . We had fun and took many pictures . But Brenda was always hiding behind her Sun glasses .
When they left for the Airport on May 17th ; we had no glue that we NEVER would see Rhonda alive again !
Brenda called us on July 4th and told us that Rhonda was in the Hospital and that she didn't know what happened . I told Weldon to get packing and within an Hour we where on our way to Goldsboro North Carolina .
We got there the next morning and we went straight for the Hospital where we met with Brenda and her " New Daughter Tori " the reason why she left my Husband after 14 Years of Marriage . We asked them Questions and they kept saying that Rhonda's Boyfriend Ken called the Ambulance and they didn't know what is going on . As soon as Ken came in I took him out in the Hallway and asked him " What the hell happened " and he told me that they just made love and when she got up she felt dizzy and she just fell over like someone had shot her .
Later on that afternoon we finally got to see her and she was connected to a lot of Machines and I felt the cold room like death has been here . My Husband said " She looks like Charlotte " and he started to cry . Charlotte was my Husbands sister that died in her 20 Ti's of Hodgkin Decease . I touched her feet and they where ice cold . My Grandson kept trying to open her eyes and we all cried a Million Tears . When we finally got to speak with the Doctors ; we found out that she had a aneurysm and she was already brain dead . She was being kept alive because she was a Organ Donor !
I will never forget the pain in every bodies Faces and the tears and the pain ! I was worried about my Husband because he had a triple Bypass 2 Years before that . It was the worst day in our lives ! And we just couldn't believe it ...
Our Rhonda , my Friend, our son's sister, Jason's and Shelby's Mom was no longer alive !
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