I didn't get my Chemo Thursday ( 09-27-2012 ) My Platelets are getting low ( still in the 60'tis ) Last year I was down to 5 !!! I just want 2 make it through this Chemo ! I was " moody " yesterday ! Then I noticed that I haven't taking my " Bitch " pills in 2 days ! So , now all I have 2 remember is 2 take them . I will write myself a note and hang it in my Bedroom .
I been thinking a lot since I have been diagnosed ! So much has happened in this last year
so much change ! I don't like " change " but that is just the way Life is . Change is needed and I don't have 2 like it ! I been thinking of my Dad ! He was 56 Years old when he died of Lung Cancer . It was quit a shock for my Sister and me . Now I am faced with the same thing and I am trying so hard 2 stay positive even though I know the outcome ! You don't have to be a Rocket Scientist to know what " Stage 4 " means and I am fully aware of that . That is why I have to go to Disney World with our Grand Children ! I promised them and I will keep my Word ! All my Papers are in order ! I changed my Will on May 23rd , a day before my Neck Surgery and I have written Letters for all the people in my Life that care ! Just in case I die ...
