I feel good because we skipped the Chemo

Today is Sunday : which makes me anxious already because my Chemo is on Thursday ! Right now I feel so good and I know that will be over on Thursday !
Hubby feels better but his Bruise is getting all kinds of Colors : black yellow , purple :)

Stage 4 Lung Cancer

I didn't get my Chemo Thursday ( 09-27-2012 ) My Platelets are getting low ( still in the 60'tis ) Last year I was down to 5 !!! I just want 2 make it through this Chemo ! I was " moody " yesterday ! Then I noticed that I haven't taking my " Bitch " pills in 2 days ! So , now all I have 2 remember is 2 take them . I will write myself a note and hang it in my Bedroom .
I been thinking a lot since I have been diagnosed ! So much has happened in this last year
so much change ! I don't like " change " but that is just the way Life is . Change is needed and I don't have 2 like it ! I been thinking of my Dad ! He was 56 Years old when he died of Lung Cancer . It was quit a shock for my Sister and me . Now I am faced with the same thing and I am trying so hard 2 stay positive even though I know the outcome ! You don't have to be a Rocket Scientist to know what " Stage 4 " means and I am fully aware of that . That is why I have to go to Disney World with our Grand Children ! I promised them and I will keep my Word ! All my Papers are in order ! I changed my Will on May 23rd , a day before my Neck Surgery and I have written Letters for all the people in my Life that care ! Just in case I die ...

It has been the hardest YEAR EVER

On Thursday we had to call 911 because Weldon's Heart beat was below 40 and his blood pressure was high ! I stayed home because there was really nothing that I could do , my Cancer does not allow me to go to ER's and Hospitals ! But around 13:00 I drove to the Heart Hospital to see him , when the Nurse told me that he needed a pace maker and a Defibrillator ! What ???? Surgery ?????? Please don't tell me that ! But it was true ! At 14:00 he had Surgery and around 18:00 he already called me ! It was so good to hear his voice ! He told me to stay home since the Dr. told him that he will go home the next day .
So , I left a message on my FB for everyone ! I was just so wore out I went to bed at 20:00 !
I picked him up at the Hospital and he looked good ! Except for the purple Hair ! He just wanted to support me in my Cancer ! What a Man ! I am so glad that I have him home again since I need him so badly !

My Friend Bernd Mueller died !

Well , what can I write ! I am still on Chemo every 3 weeks  I hang on a Infusion ! I hate it because it is for 7 Hours ! It is boring and you try like Hell to act like nothing bothers you ! So any people there : lot of old ones ! Sometimes you see the fear in peoples eyes !
The last couple of days I was in a Daze , when I found out that Bernd Mueller died and the found his Body after 4 days ! He laid in Bed DEAD ! I miss him ! He was a good guy !

Cancer ? No way !

I haven't written much because this Blog was so posed to be about Hepatitis C only ! Well , maybe some other greater Being is making me write about Cancer to now .
When I started this Blog I really thought that it is good to write about it because it helps me vent ! Well , I guess now it is a Hepatitis C / Cancer Blog !
It is so overwhelming  when you first get diagnosed and it isn't a easy thing to accept !
I have done a lot of research on both Illnesses and all I can say is this : " God never gives you more then you can handle " but why is my Back starting to hurt ? " I feel ok today . Last Thursday I had my Chemo and it hit me and kept me down for 5 days ! Could not get out of Bed ! And all I wanted to do was lay in my Bed ! Today I feel ok even did some Laundry and cleaned our Guest room out just in case someone wants to come see me ! I also cleaned the Camper changes all the sheets and put them back on the Bed ! At least I am ready 4 the next Hurricane ! No , I will not let the Devil win !