Am I alone in this ?

Today is one of these days , where I am just fed up ! I have to ask myself :  am I really in this alone ? Why can't a spouse  understand what You are going through ? It could be less stress full if your spouse supports you . But I guess that is 2 much 2 ask sometimes ! Maybe I just ask 4 to much ....
I know one thing : this decease has changed me so much ! I don't eat shit anymore , I will no longer be the little Lady that gives in all the time . I have grown so much in the last 5 weeks and I see everything pretty clearly . I have no longer Blind folds on . I am a grown 54 year old woman and it is time I live my life the way I SEE FIT !