I can't believe that I actually had another energetic day ! Thank you God for given me that uplift just when I needed it the most <3
I reorganized my Pantry ( had to trow away some stuff that was expired ! ) He just constantly buys more stuff and today I showed him what I done and he was impressed . I told him that I will clean corner by corner ( while I will get stronger and stronger every day ) and that corner was to STAY this way ! I took pictures of his mess and will keep on taken pictures and then blow them up and show him ! His Body Language showed me : he wasn't listening . But I can no longer worry about him because I have to take care of myself in order to get a grip on life again ! I have never ever been selfish in my life but you know what ? This time I have to get a little bit selfish because nobody takes care of me !
So I will start a brand new life now : getting back in shape and push myself even harder now ! My House is a disaster area and I am sick of it ! Lately we can't even really talk anymore because his astrological sign is Cancer and I am a Libra . When he goes in his shell ; there is less and lesser communication ! Tomorrow I will start to work out even harder just to get my Body healthier !
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Dr. C I am on my way !
I had a little trouble sleeping , last night ! I am sure it had something to do with some crazy WOMAN on Facebook , after I made a remark on how games are just so time consuming and that I will only play one game now : someone made a statement that was just unbecoming !
Anyway I am getting ready for my Dr. Visit ! I am so excited and can't wait to get this pet scan done and then I have to wait a few days before I get my Result's <<< waiting >>> Same game as the last time but this time the spot on the lung should be gone by now , since he gave me a mega dose of Chemical's in my LAST Chemo . So please God , be gentle whatever the outcome is ; I CAN TAKE IT but it would be so nice if I was in remission !
Well , Dr C was funny today ! He asked me where my Husband was and I told him he is in his Cage !
He laughed and said " Did you get a remote Control for the Pace Maker yet ? " I laughed and told him " I would have to much fun " We laughed and I said to him " Dr. C , the truth is my Husband is getting on my last nerve right now and trust me Doc I am better off for not having him with me "
Then I went to the Veterans Club because someone had a Birthday the day before and I couldn't go because I felt like crap , and I wanted to drop off a gift ! It was so nice to be around some old Folks who are just plain nice ;) We where cutting up and laughing and it was just so wonderful to see them all again ! I stayed 2 Hours bought the House a round of drinks and I drank my Water .
When I came home he wasn't home yet from his 2 PM Appointment and here I was : had my appointment went to the V. Club and he was " shopping " again . Sooner or later he has to face the fact that he is a Hoarder ! I just about had it !
Anyway I am getting ready for my Dr. Visit ! I am so excited and can't wait to get this pet scan done and then I have to wait a few days before I get my Result's <<< waiting >>> Same game as the last time but this time the spot on the lung should be gone by now , since he gave me a mega dose of Chemical's in my LAST Chemo . So please God , be gentle whatever the outcome is ; I CAN TAKE IT but it would be so nice if I was in remission !
Well , Dr C was funny today ! He asked me where my Husband was and I told him he is in his Cage !
He laughed and said " Did you get a remote Control for the Pace Maker yet ? " I laughed and told him " I would have to much fun " We laughed and I said to him " Dr. C , the truth is my Husband is getting on my last nerve right now and trust me Doc I am better off for not having him with me "
Then I went to the Veterans Club because someone had a Birthday the day before and I couldn't go because I felt like crap , and I wanted to drop off a gift ! It was so nice to be around some old Folks who are just plain nice ;) We where cutting up and laughing and it was just so wonderful to see them all again ! I stayed 2 Hours bought the House a round of drinks and I drank my Water .
When I came home he wasn't home yet from his 2 PM Appointment and here I was : had my appointment went to the V. Club and he was " shopping " again . Sooner or later he has to face the fact that he is a Hoarder ! I just about had it !
Monday, February 25, 2013
Seeing Dr. C tomorrow
Erna has lost some Heart Muscle because she did not go to the Doctor 2 weeks prior when she had all the symptoms of a heart attack . She went to the Heart Dr, and after a EKG he told her to go straight to the Hospital . And she went ...
She is still not really feeling right but no more pressure on the Chest ! Just walking to the mail box makes her feel like she is out of breath .
This last weekend was nice , pain is manageable and I actually ate a real Meal ! Yummy Macaroni and cheese and Swedish meatballs . I am feeling a lot stronger now even though I have my week days . Tomorrow I will see Dr. C and hopefully we are doing the PET SCAN ! I am excited but yet scared ; will it all be gone ? I hope so !
Dennie is taking Commands now and things are looking up ! He already made progress with writing and he also gives a Thumbs up and he is just not " back " yet but I have high hopes that he will make it and come out of that !
She is still not really feeling right but no more pressure on the Chest ! Just walking to the mail box makes her feel like she is out of breath .
This last weekend was nice , pain is manageable and I actually ate a real Meal ! Yummy Macaroni and cheese and Swedish meatballs . I am feeling a lot stronger now even though I have my week days . Tomorrow I will see Dr. C and hopefully we are doing the PET SCAN ! I am excited but yet scared ; will it all be gone ? I hope so !
Dennie is taking Commands now and things are looking up ! He already made progress with writing and he also gives a Thumbs up and he is just not " back " yet but I have high hopes that he will make it and come out of that !
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Erna has no blockages
Erna had a test , she has no blockages ! But she did have a Heart attack 2 weeks ago and I hope that her heart is getting stronger and stronger every day. But she has some dead Muscle under her Heart .
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Pain is getting better !
My Bones hurt and I also feel weak ; but the severe pain is doing ok !
Just found out that Erna is in the Hospital , irregular Heart beat . I will get dressed later and go see her , just have to wait a while .
I have been in Bed since last Chemo on the 7th . But I have to be patient ; because some people have more problems then others ! I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired ! But I am looking forward to some peace , no pain , and healing prayers .
I went to see Erna in the Hospital , Hubby went with me . Steffi was there and I just love her :)
Anyway , right now we are waiting for news .
Just found out that Erna is in the Hospital , irregular Heart beat . I will get dressed later and go see her , just have to wait a while .
I have been in Bed since last Chemo on the 7th . But I have to be patient ; because some people have more problems then others ! I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired ! But I am looking forward to some peace , no pain , and healing prayers .
I went to see Erna in the Hospital , Hubby went with me . Steffi was there and I just love her :)
Anyway , right now we are waiting for news .
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Beautiful Valentines Day
When I came back from Chemo ; I was amazed how Weldon surprised me with a beautiful Teddy bear that is holding a Picture Frame , Strawberries dipped in Chocolate and a Card that made me cry because I felt his Love !
My Bones are aching and I had to take a Pain pill and 2 Muscle relaxers . I also put that Oil on again with Eucalypti and it helped my Legs and shoulders . My Chaw line hurts and that one pain pill really helped a lot . I know my Kidneys gonna hurt tomorrow , since I compared it to my notes
Talked to Liane and we " unloaded " on each other . Our Friendship has bloomed in the last 2 Years and I love her like a sister ! We understand each other ...
he really did a great Job this year . He tries and I know he loves me ; but sometimes I forget that he is sick too .
I finally gave " Liberty " a Hair cut the other day . she needed it . I still have not done " Sarge " yet , But when I feel better then I will do him .
My Bones are aching and I had to take a Pain pill and 2 Muscle relaxers . I also put that Oil on again with Eucalypti and it helped my Legs and shoulders . My Chaw line hurts and that one pain pill really helped a lot . I know my Kidneys gonna hurt tomorrow , since I compared it to my notes
Talked to Liane and we " unloaded " on each other . Our Friendship has bloomed in the last 2 Years and I love her like a sister ! We understand each other ...
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Tomorrow : LAST CHEMO
Well , nobody called this morning so I guess I get my Last Chemo tomorrow ! I am so anticipating the last Chemo :) I am glad that it is over and I also worry because I am still not cancer free :( But I will be , because I am strong and nothing can knock me down anymore ! I do realize how fucked up the last 2 Years have been but I am so ready to go back to the Gym and work out ! I have lost a lot of Muscle and I will lift them Weights again , just as I will beat that Cancer !
It has been 12 Years since I was diagnosed with Hep C and my Numbers are coming down suddenly ! I can't wait to see Dr. Albright ! I just think the world of him
It has been 12 Years since I was diagnosed with Hep C and my Numbers are coming down suddenly ! I can't wait to see Dr. Albright ! I just think the world of him
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
King Cakes delivered
Yesterday I went by Dr. Casey's Office and delivered 2 nice King Cakes ! Then I went to the Cancer Center and gave Blood ! Didn't have to wait long and I brought my new Paper work for the Blood .
On my way home I went by Dr. Albright's and delivered his 2 King Cakes since he also has a lot of people working for him . We enjoy " GIVING " and since we do have the best Doctors we must let them know !
Life is looking up a little bit . I just hope that my last Chemo is really my last one !
And I hope I have enough platelets to get the chemo ! It has been raining here for 2 days and it feels like the weather in Germany ! Nasty and dark ...
On my way home I went by Dr. Albright's and delivered his 2 King Cakes since he also has a lot of people working for him . We enjoy " GIVING " and since we do have the best Doctors we must let them know !
Life is looking up a little bit . I just hope that my last Chemo is really my last one !
And I hope I have enough platelets to get the chemo ! It has been raining here for 2 days and it feels like the weather in Germany ! Nasty and dark ...
Thursday, February 7, 2013
20/20 Vision
I took Hubby to the eye Dr . and his Vision is ALREADY 20/20 he was so amazed by that . I am so glad that he finally did it , we have been talking about ! When we came home he told me that he is driving to WalMart and to the Pharmacy ! " No you won't " I am telling myself inside my head . Instead I tell him that he needs to put his eye drops in before he leaves and once he did that he was out like a light ! I had to smile because Men are such babies ( hope Men don't read my stuff ) He has been out since 10:30 AM and now it is 2:30 PM ! Must be some good eye drops !
I have not been feeling good today but I tried to get a few things done ! Still have to unload the Dishwasher and fold clothe . My House was never in such a chaotic state ! It made me realize how truly ill I am and it drives me crazy ! But I have already a Membership at a Gym and after I get to feeling better after my next Chemo and hopefully last ;I need to work out . I have lost a lot of Muscle tone and it bothers me too. Maybe I declare this Day as a officially " Bitch Day " .
Going over my Blood results I noticed one thing : My Liver is getting better ! For the ones that knows about Hepatitis C ; my AST went from 139 down to 50 and my ALT went down to 52 ! Now I am wondering : maybe this chemo really is helping my Hep C !
Well , he woke up and he is going to the Store ... What can I say ?
I have not been feeling good today but I tried to get a few things done ! Still have to unload the Dishwasher and fold clothe . My House was never in such a chaotic state ! It made me realize how truly ill I am and it drives me crazy ! But I have already a Membership at a Gym and after I get to feeling better after my next Chemo and hopefully last ;I need to work out . I have lost a lot of Muscle tone and it bothers me too. Maybe I declare this Day as a officially " Bitch Day " .
Going over my Blood results I noticed one thing : My Liver is getting better ! For the ones that knows about Hepatitis C ; my AST went from 139 down to 50 and my ALT went down to 52 ! Now I am wondering : maybe this chemo really is helping my Hep C !
Well , he woke up and he is going to the Store ... What can I say ?
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Eye surgery
Had to get up at 5 AM to drive Weldon to his eye appointment . I was surprised that he was done in no time ! After the surgery we went to the Cracker barrel and ate Breakfast and then home ! My eyes are burning from lack of sleep ! :)
Doctor said for him to take it easy for the next couple of days and he will see him tomorrow to take his eye patch off .
I just love to drive his Truck !!! It makes me feel so good when I drive it . I feel pretty good today and I am so grateful that the Man upstairs has given me a good day :)
Have to go to Yoville now !
Doctor said for him to take it easy for the next couple of days and he will see him tomorrow to take his eye patch off .
I just love to drive his Truck !!! It makes me feel so good when I drive it . I feel pretty good today and I am so grateful that the Man upstairs has given me a good day :)
Have to go to Yoville now !
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
Results !
Finally some good news ! Nothing is growing ! No New Growth or any Metastatic stuff going on ! I have one more Chemo next Thursday and then we do another Pet scan , just to make sure everything is ok . The Doctor is optimistic and I am too . It is just so damn scary ! I will see the Dr. again in 3 Weeks and then we will see ...
Hey , I am happy nothing else is growing and for that I am so grateful !
Hey , I am happy nothing else is growing and for that I am so grateful !
Sunday, February 3, 2013
More MRI's
I haven't been feeling good all week so I have not been doing any writing . My World is just so much more complicated then before I found out about the Cancer . I have been getting little Headaches and my Neck started hurting again , so on Thursday I went for a MRI and it took at least 2 Hours before I was done . Naturally , Weldon did not even ask me how everything went . I didn't care so I said nothing !
I think about my Friend Teri and how she has to cope with her Son's Accident . She has been sitting by his Bed ever since he went in a Coma . She just called me and I am glad she is on her way back since she has a Appointment tomorrow . We will have Lunch some where . I miss her and I wish I could be there for her . Tuesday I have my Dr. Appointment and hopefully I get good news !
I think about my Friend Teri and how she has to cope with her Son's Accident . She has been sitting by his Bed ever since he went in a Coma . She just called me and I am glad she is on her way back since she has a Appointment tomorrow . We will have Lunch some where . I miss her and I wish I could be there for her . Tuesday I have my Dr. Appointment and hopefully I get good news !